SOC Sunday #5

Stream Of Consciousness Sunday... 
The Rules:

• Set a timer and write for 5 minutes only.
• Write an intro to the post if you want but don’t edit the post. No proofreading or spellchecking. This is writing in the raw.
• Publish it somewhere. Anywhere. The back door to your blog if you want. But make it accessible.
• Add the Stream of Consciousness Sunday badge to your post.
• Link up your post below.
• Visit your fellow bloggers and show some love.

Today is a good day. We curled Cat’s hair last night and today the curls were there. It wasn’t amazing like my hair does, but it was interesting. And you never know unless you try. So we tried something new and it worked decently.

I am tired and trying to drink some EXTREME caffeine French vanilla cappucion from the gas station. Because this house is a mess.  Mostly it’s a mess from us just living in it, but also because we sent my sister to Florida to live. And thank GOD she’s gone, I love her but she makes me crazy. And she makes life chaotic. And there’s a reason we no longer have certain people in our life. And that reason is because of the drama and chaos that they bring to it.

Next Saturday I have to go go my cousin’s girlfriend’s baby shower. I am not excited. If Sarah hadn’t lost her baby we would be getting ready for our own baby shower and that is hard. Like really hard. I know I have two kids, but I don’t have any nieces or nephews and I was so excited.  But that’s no one’s fault it’s just how life goes.  So it’s really probably best that Sarah is in Florida now. Because it would probably kill her to go to the baby shower.

My head hurts, probably from thinking too much and going outside with a wet head to church this morning. I love being the presence of other Christians, whether or not we agree on everything. And I feel so invigorated when we leave. It’s just a great great feeling. I wish I could just pour it out to everyone. But when we get home I am so ready to take a nap.  It’s a lot like when you go out to a club or with friends. It’s a lot of fun, and you just never want it to end. But when it is over and you’re home you’re so ready to just pass out..

SOC Sunday.... Finally

I've been meaning to do this for about 2 months, since I first saw some other bloggers Stream Of Consciousness Sunday buttons and posts.  And finally I think I'm going to be able to write one.. maybe just maybe if Cat will sit still for about 6 minutes.


It's Sunday and I've totally screwed up my Blog Dare for 2011. I should have known that it was too much for me, still be kinda new to the whole 2 baby single mom thing.  And working day shift, and dealing with my other issues. 

But its okay... I'm not going to get down.  Besides this week is a week of wonderful! Cat is going to start Daycare!! And that means (hopefully) a better Cat!!!  Maybe I'll be able to change her nickname.. I doubt it, but a mom can hope. 

In addition to all of that funness there's the whole writing a break up letter to my dad.  Which has all these other things tied up in it.  And while I want to write about it, and kinda already said I would.  I'm not sure if anyone wants to read all about the way I got so screwed up.. And how I'm dealing with it.   But I'll probably post it, because first and foremost this blog is for me.  (And to save the sanity of my family, they get tired of hearing my crap.)

 Ugh.. Ohm..  I'm so tired, and so invigorated.  There's this amazing change I can't wait to be able to post about, but it's still a couple months in the works.  And I can't say anything, because we haven't told anyone really outside of our immediate family.  And when the rest of the world knows, all hell could break loose for a little bit...


And that was the HARDEST 5 minutes of writing, ever.